Cycle 2, 2 DPO, 2 much!

Well my last cycle was disappointing not just becaus I wasn't pregnant but because despite the B complex I was taking and the efforts I made to nurse my son less frequently I still had a very short luteal phase. I decided to forgo the B vitamin this month and see what happened. I thought this month might be a bust because I was in NYC for my grandmothers 90th just before ovulation but without the B vitamin I ovulated on day 20 and we were able to catch O-3, O-1, O and O+1.  It's hard and scary to feel so hopeful yet again. I'm not sure if its possible to get pregnant when I am ovulating 5 days later than I did prior to having my son. I worry this cycle change is not just from nursing but some sort of perimenopause. It doesn't run in my family at all but I did smoke heavily for 5 years and that scares me. Praying to god that I can get pregnant again!!!! I would love to be able to continue o nurse as well. Despite my worries I really did take my fertility for granted before we started trying. I guess after having a baby you just feel like it should fall ino place. I really hope it does and that I don't need to explore interventions that we can't afford. I am already so stressed out about money.

If this month doesn't work out I may try some acupuncture and vitex or ferlititea. We shall see.

In the interim I hope to enjoy my baby Boy and make the best of my blessed life. I dot want to be so obsessed with giving him a sibling that I miss this wonderful time. He is so cute and funny and I know it will be wonderful but so much harder with two. I need to enjoy this!!!

Feeling so stressed

I'm having a mini AMH freak out. Oh god PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me conceive another baby. I am so sorry that I took it for granted that I would get pregnant quickly again. I wish we could have started trying again sooner. I hope that my age doesn't effect things. I am praying praying praying for another baby. PLEASE! I'm so scared. This is so important to me. I hope I will be pregnan again soon.