I sit here at the imaging center of the Hosptial where I gave birth to my son. I wish I were here to get an ultrasound of our new baby but instead I'm here to investigate why I that baby is taking a while to conceive. I am getting a pelvic ultrasound to check on the two fibroids that my NYC doctor sighted. Apparently they were not mentioned or noticed at all by my doctors here and that's not typical. I would love to think they they are completely gone or at least have shrunk. That's what I'm hoping. I sat in this room with so much nervous happiness before. I really hope I am not back here again unless I have a healthy little baby to view.
In other news I have weaned my son. This is day 3 and so far it has gone really well. I feel better about it than I thought I would. I feel like we were both ready even though he is just shy of 21 months and my initial plan was to make it to 24. My doctor told me that weaning would be a good idea before doing any kind of a fertility work up.
In addition to this ultrasound I also had bloodwork taken for my thyroid and I had an endometrial biopsy taken on Thursday. The biopsy was taken on the day of ovulation and we didn't hit any other days so pregnancy this month would be a long shot. I got a positive ovulation test on the same day just after the exam but in only last 12 hours or so and my temperature the next morning was really low. I think I either didn't ovulate this month or I ovulated late. Time will tell. Right now I mostly am just hoping for a longer luteal phase. The weaning probably won't have any effect until next cycle if at all. I'm really hoping beyond hope that the nursing was the problem. I'm hoping beyond hope that I am pregnant before this summer ends. I didn't expect to end up here when I started this journey back in January. I hope we can make a sibling for my sweet boy. I hope and pray we can have another child to love. I am forever grateful for my son and feel so lucky to have had a child at all. This hurts though, I won't lie. I feel gutted by the possibility that I may never have another child again. I hope it's not true. Please God! I beg of you!
