Here we are. I will be 35 weeks on Sunday which is two days away. It's a milestone because I will be age 35, 35 weeks an have 35 days till his due date. I am starting to feel a but antsy and dare I say over the being pregnant. I feel bad about this because I have so much time left and I also think it is naive not to realize how much of a challenge is ahead. I am gonna have a baby to care for, no sleep and be recovering from birth. Bi guess its hard because I am tired and physically drained and just a bit bored. It's hard to fight that boredom when you have no physical stamina. I am also just so excited for the challenge of my baby. I can't wait to just look into his beautiful eyes and cradle him close. Soon enough but yeah somedays it's doesn't feel soon enough.
He is hiccuping right now! He kept me up all night. His movements just get stronger as he gets bigger and stronger. I can't believe I only have two more weekends till he is full term, 5 -7 till he is born. Magical. This is such a dream come true! I have a son on te way!
Been reading to him a lot. He seems to love Dr. Suess the best. I just or him Shell Silversteins A light in the Attic too because I think he likes rhymes. He kicks cutely when I read them to him. I love you so much already baby boy!
Friday, July 27, 2012
Friday, July 20, 2012
McJudgey so I won't be tempted?!
So lately I have been feeling a bit guilty about this knee jerk reaction of disgust i have when I hear that a woman has done any of the following in her pregnancy: opted for selective c-section or unnecessary induction out of impatience or discomfort a relative in town or some other lame seeming excuse, decided she is not breastfeeding for any non medical reason, decided to get an epidural and not even give natural childbirth a go, pig out on high calorie junk then have a 10lb baby born two weeks early via c section because she is a lame idiot ( see: Jessica Simpson.
I think one of the main reasons though that I feel so judgemental of these circumstances is because they are all in some way tempting to me as much as I think they are wrong. Selfish and wrong. Yet I know how impatient I am (especially with good friends wedding coming up) and I know how hard it will be to fight these things unless I focus on my disgust. Perhaps some of my feelings also stem in jealousy that I can't be as dim witted or casual about these sorts of interventions as these women who are. I dunno. Maybe I am like the right wing christian who is secretly gay so his hatred of gays is self hatred! It's how he keeps himself from goin there. Ofcourse being gay is not at all like these things because it's something loving and about ones identity. The choices I mentioned above ARE not in the baby or moms best interest. They might be personal choices and god knows we shouldn't expect people to be perfect but they are definitely the mcdonalization of medicine. Get it fast get it now. One dimwit women on my baby board is having herself induced ( for the second time) because her mom is in town. What an idiot. Another girl agonized forever trying to get pregnant only to finally get there and now her husband who works offshore might mean she is induced so he can be there for the birth. I get it but come on, what of you could not control this kind f thing? I dunno. Maybe I am partially jealous because I imagine myself waiting in agony for my son to come way past his due date. Maybe I don't want to be faced with that and hating all the women who don't care about the risks or have the moral compass I do on this matter. Whatever it is it does make me feel bad. Bad but also like a good mother. Oh irony .
I think one of the main reasons though that I feel so judgemental of these circumstances is because they are all in some way tempting to me as much as I think they are wrong. Selfish and wrong. Yet I know how impatient I am (especially with good friends wedding coming up) and I know how hard it will be to fight these things unless I focus on my disgust. Perhaps some of my feelings also stem in jealousy that I can't be as dim witted or casual about these sorts of interventions as these women who are. I dunno. Maybe I am like the right wing christian who is secretly gay so his hatred of gays is self hatred! It's how he keeps himself from goin there. Ofcourse being gay is not at all like these things because it's something loving and about ones identity. The choices I mentioned above ARE not in the baby or moms best interest. They might be personal choices and god knows we shouldn't expect people to be perfect but they are definitely the mcdonalization of medicine. Get it fast get it now. One dimwit women on my baby board is having herself induced ( for the second time) because her mom is in town. What an idiot. Another girl agonized forever trying to get pregnant only to finally get there and now her husband who works offshore might mean she is induced so he can be there for the birth. I get it but come on, what of you could not control this kind f thing? I dunno. Maybe I am partially jealous because I imagine myself waiting in agony for my son to come way past his due date. Maybe I don't want to be faced with that and hating all the women who don't care about the risks or have the moral compass I do on this matter. Whatever it is it does make me feel bad. Bad but also like a good mother. Oh irony .
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Baby looks toward the light!!
I am so happy. I had an appointment yesterday, my first bi weekly appointment, and baby is doin so great. He is measuring right on time, he is turned head down, good solid heartbeat. I hope he stays head down so labor is vaginal without complications.
My doctor and I also went over my birth plan and she is cool with it all but she does recommend that I stay open to membrane sweeps and breaking bag of waters as more natural non pitocin birth induction methods. I was also sad to see that they don't have cord blood donation. Too bad.
I am 32 and a half weeks and we made all of my appointments including one for September 5th, should he be late on arrival. As much as I hope he comes by 39 weeks I have a sneaking suspicion he will be closer to 41. The main reason this would be less ideal, aside from me just being impatient to meet him is we want to take him to a friends wedding on September 28th. But I am not sure how easy that will be if he is too brand new and I am stl recovering. The latest he would be allowed to go is to about the 15th but that would make him only 2 weeks. Still what will be will be. I do not else in unnecessary inductions or scheduled c sections so he and the circumstances have to decide when he comes. I will have a full term baby by August 12th (4 and a half weeks!) and due 3 weeks after that. 39 weeks is supposed to be the earliest babies are at optimal birth health so that's my ideal soonest. We shall see. Most boys and first time pregnancies go late so I won't hold my breath. I am just so happy he is head down an things are progressing. What a blessing all of this has been. What a difference a year makes!
My doctor and I also went over my birth plan and she is cool with it all but she does recommend that I stay open to membrane sweeps and breaking bag of waters as more natural non pitocin birth induction methods. I was also sad to see that they don't have cord blood donation. Too bad.
I am 32 and a half weeks and we made all of my appointments including one for September 5th, should he be late on arrival. As much as I hope he comes by 39 weeks I have a sneaking suspicion he will be closer to 41. The main reason this would be less ideal, aside from me just being impatient to meet him is we want to take him to a friends wedding on September 28th. But I am not sure how easy that will be if he is too brand new and I am stl recovering. The latest he would be allowed to go is to about the 15th but that would make him only 2 weeks. Still what will be will be. I do not else in unnecessary inductions or scheduled c sections so he and the circumstances have to decide when he comes. I will have a full term baby by August 12th (4 and a half weeks!) and due 3 weeks after that. 39 weeks is supposed to be the earliest babies are at optimal birth health so that's my ideal soonest. We shall see. Most boys and first time pregnancies go late so I won't hold my breath. I am just so happy he is head down an things are progressing. What a blessing all of this has been. What a difference a year makes!
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Feathering the Nest!
We finally have a nursery! My mother in law came last week and bought us a crib, mattress, and high chair for baby. We also got gift cards and checks from the virtual shower that allowed me to order the rest of what I need, including diapers, care supplies for bath and body, co sleeper, breast pump (I went with medela), changing pad and so much I can't even remember. All we need now really is good glider or rocking chair for nursing and some diaper covers and wet bags for trying out cloth diapering.
I also need to find a pediatrician. This I have started to research but really want to finish up soon. I think I may ask the hospital for local recommendations.
We completed our child birth class and start the newborn care portion this month. I really look forward to it. I didn't babysit much in my life and I know nothing really about caring for a newborn. I bought dolls that I practice with. One is a weighted porcelain baby doll that is best for practicing carrying around a baby, slings and trips and trying to balance that with daily activities. He is good and heavy and fragile. The other is a plastic doll that is good for bathing an it's head tilts back so it's also good practice for supporting a baby's neck and might be good for baby CPR although I do want to take a proper class for that too if it's not taught to us. My husband will miss next weeks class but I an hoping he will get enough basics that that doesn't matter too much. I am make him do the homework for both too.
I can't believe how close it's getting now. Only 60 days or 8 weeks till our son is due. He is kicking me right now!
I am savoring my sleep even though it is less common now that I am so huge and my moments of solitude. I am trying to enjoy this calm before the storm.
I have gained 40lbs already so I imagine I will gain around 50 total. More than the 35 suggested but I was not overweight before and my doctor is not concerned so I am not. I do look forward to taking the weight off but I know this will take time and hard work.
I just feel so blessed to be having this baby boy! I wonder what he looks like and what he will be like as a person. It's fourth of July and we are having a big cookout with our neighbors. This be the last holiday I spend without my baby. Life is amazing!
I also need to find a pediatrician. This I have started to research but really want to finish up soon. I think I may ask the hospital for local recommendations.
We completed our child birth class and start the newborn care portion this month. I really look forward to it. I didn't babysit much in my life and I know nothing really about caring for a newborn. I bought dolls that I practice with. One is a weighted porcelain baby doll that is best for practicing carrying around a baby, slings and trips and trying to balance that with daily activities. He is good and heavy and fragile. The other is a plastic doll that is good for bathing an it's head tilts back so it's also good practice for supporting a baby's neck and might be good for baby CPR although I do want to take a proper class for that too if it's not taught to us. My husband will miss next weeks class but I an hoping he will get enough basics that that doesn't matter too much. I am make him do the homework for both too.
I can't believe how close it's getting now. Only 60 days or 8 weeks till our son is due. He is kicking me right now!
I am savoring my sleep even though it is less common now that I am so huge and my moments of solitude. I am trying to enjoy this calm before the storm.
I have gained 40lbs already so I imagine I will gain around 50 total. More than the 35 suggested but I was not overweight before and my doctor is not concerned so I am not. I do look forward to taking the weight off but I know this will take time and hard work.
I just feel so blessed to be having this baby boy! I wonder what he looks like and what he will be like as a person. It's fourth of July and we are having a big cookout with our neighbors. This be the last holiday I spend without my baby. Life is amazing!
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