McJudgey so I won't be tempted?!

So lately I have been feeling a bit guilty about this knee jerk reaction of disgust i have when I hear that a woman has done any of the following in her pregnancy: opted for selective c-section or unnecessary induction out of impatience or discomfort a relative in town or some other lame seeming excuse, decided she is not breastfeeding for any non medical reason, decided to get an epidural and not even give natural childbirth a go, pig out on high calorie junk then have a 10lb baby born two weeks early via c section because she is a lame idiot ( see: Jessica Simpson.

I think one of the main reasons though that I feel so judgemental of these circumstances is because they are all in some way tempting to me as much as I think they are wrong. Selfish and wrong. Yet I know how impatient I am (especially with good friends wedding coming up) and I know how hard it will be to fight these things unless I focus on my disgust. Perhaps some of my feelings also stem in jealousy that I can't be as dim witted or casual about these sorts of interventions as these women who are. I dunno. Maybe I am like the right wing christian who is secretly gay so his hatred of gays is self hatred! It's how he keeps himself from goin there. Ofcourse being gay is not at all like these things because it's something loving and about ones identity. The choices I mentioned above ARE not in the baby or moms best interest. They might be personal choices and god knows we shouldn't expect people to be perfect but they are definitely the mcdonalization of medicine. Get it fast get it now. One dimwit women on my baby board is having herself induced ( for the second time) because her mom is in town. What an idiot. Another girl agonized forever trying to get pregnant only to finally get there and now her husband who works offshore might mean she is induced so he can be there for the birth. I get it but come on, what of you could not control this kind f thing? I dunno. Maybe I am partially jealous because I imagine myself waiting in agony for my son to come way past his due date. Maybe I don't want to be faced with that and hating all the women who don't care about the risks or have the moral compass I do on this matter. Whatever it is it does make me feel bad. Bad but also like a good mother. Oh irony .