Not even a little bit. Feeling so drained and completely over it right now. It's only month four but the obsessing has been going on a lot longer. Frankly i am feeling like i need a break from the intensity of trying to make this happen. I wont stop entirely but i need to dial it down. I am 10DPO but having dark brown thick clotty blood. So i wont be having a holiday baby. Not only were my instincts wrong but I feel very nervous about my body. My period still hasn't broken through and I am continuing this edit on 12DPO. I am having very heavy dark clotty spotting. I hope this doesn't indicate a problem with my tubes or my fibroids or some sort of blockage like endometriosis. I am very scared of that. I hope this is just my cycle continuing to adjust after cutting back on nursing.
I've decided to take a cycle to just chill out about the whole thing. I really hope I can have another baby. I am starting to seriously worry about the possibility of secondary infertility. Something I never feared before. Hope I'm wrong.
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