1 Day Past due...

I am getting the lovely distinction on my baby boards of being the ONLY one who has made it to her due date so far, and past actually. Trust me it's not an honor.

So I have a confession to make, I was guilty of getting annoyed at and judging those women who one day before or after their due date are flipping out and losing their shit! I wa a judgmental unfair asshole and I want to apologize to those women! This Sucks Hard! Everyday that goes by feels like an eternity that you have to try to fill up in order to maintain any semblance of sanity. Sleep is something you can do in sections but it's hard won and not good sleep. Why sleep when you can prolong your agonizing wait by spending more hours thinking about it? Your body is getting bigger and heavier by the second and you just feel horribly uncomfortable. You're worried about the baby who is all cramped in there and who, frankly, by now you thought you would be holding safe in your arms. Pregnancy can be scary, you want to trust it and your body but at some point you want it to just be over and allow you to enjoy knowing that you did it! You created a life an gave it safe passage into this world. And finally you just want this labor thing to happen! It's this huge, exciting and unpredictable bodily function that you have never experienced and are not sure how to discern. I mean, is that just a cramp or labor? Everything just becomes so nerve wreckingly uncertain. And then there's this growing baby. I want to birth a lite newborn not an 11 pound toddler with stubble. I want my baby out here now so I have more time to enjoy him as a baby. I know he has grown enough. I know he will be safe because I know when I dropped that egg. I TOTALLY understand why women might beg for an induction at this point or start to! It's my bad for ever accusing a woman of being way to impatient and unnatural when here I am in those shoes! I get it! I totally fucking get it! It's time to have a baby.

So now here is the part where I desperately beg the universe to let me go into labor today!

Dear universe, you have granted my so much already. Everything in life. I realize I should be happy with just that and I am. But if there is any way you can spare some small mercy I would be so grateful. I have learned my lesson about my smug judgmental behavior. I apologize for acting such a fool. Please send my body the signal today! Release this baby into my arms!
Signed: Your humble servant who is ever so grateful!