Sickies, tickies and stickies

Baby boy and I are both sick right now. Some kind of sinus infection that started out with sore throats  and has ended up in post nasal drip. I am thankful that this didn't come up around ovulation time but it has been very hard on my sleep and health. Night weaning has also been harder. The first 3 nights went fairly smooth but last night was disaterous. He stirred and cried all night long. I finally had to give in and feed him but I tried to do so for a short time till morning. Then I skipped his second morning feed. I really didn't want him to dehydrate from all that crying. He refused everything I offer including water. I'm hoping for a better night tonight. I am going to try feeding him in a warm bath again because that worked well night before last. I also need to make sure he gets his Motrin for teeth pain. Last night he didn't swallow it all and I didn't want to accidentally OD him so I just had to let it be. Tonight I will be more careful he swallows the full dose. 

I really hope all of this sickness and lack of sleep won't harm my cycle this month. All I can do is try my best. I must be honest I am starting to really worry that this will be more than just a prolactin issue. The fact that I haven't seen much of an increase in my LP despite the B6 and vitex. Wondering if it would be smart to increase the B6 before ovulation. I've heard it can delay it somewhat but in my case it seems to be making me ovulate earlier. I'm gonna try upping it. 

I've also added a baby aspirin for my lining. I'll avoid it around ovulation but then use it just after to help thin the blood. 

I also have acupuncture tomorrow. It's super affordable here in Portland. I'm not sure when I did it last time I got pregnant but I feel like it can't hurt. I hope I won't need an HSG in order to get pregnant but if I do then that's the route I will go.  It may have helped to clear my tubes. I also want to try more missionary and softcups. Make sure my husband is not hindering things by urinating before sex or using anything on himself. I don't want to have that conversation with him but if I must, I must. I know for a fact we were in missionary when we conceived our son. So I will push harder for that. 

I hate all of this TTC business. It's stressful and not fun after a few months. I hate the uncertainty. I hate not knowing why it's not happened yet. I am going insane with supplements and diet and controlled weaning. I am so tired of all te ovulation sticks and negative pregnancy tests. Tired of bleeding way too early for my own good. Tired of the worry. Tired of high pressure sex and trying to keep my husband in line with things but also not spoil the mood. Tired. Tired. Tired. 

All I can do now is pray. I pray so hard that the universe will bring me at least one more precious baby to love. Someone to share a childhood with our son and enrich our lives. I pray for that for myself and for my sister who is also in the very early stages of this journey. I pray that our bodies cooperate and we see a healthy brand new baby in each of our arms by next year. This is my biggest hope right now. Second only to the health and well being of my son husband friends and family. This is my biggest wish.