Been a long time

I am doing very well! I am 12 weeks pregnant today and saw a very active sweet little fetus dancing around in my tummy last week. Sickness went from rough to hardly at all startin at around 11 weeks or so (seemed to coincide with cooler weather) and we came out to the public today. It now really feels real! We are having a second sweet baby. It's such an amazing blessing. Our son will be 2 on Sunday and today was his due date. My husband just got a wonderful new job and things just feel glorious these days. I can only enjoy it and pray it continues.

We got a blood test done last Friday that will not only test for all genetic conditions but will tell us our new little baby's sex. I would be in complete and utter shock if this baby were not a boy. Despite more sickness this time than last I am firm in the team blue camp as far as intuition goes. I would be over the moon in equal proportions if I found out I was to have a daughter but my soul sees two little boys. Initially I was a bit sad thinking of that saying "a son is a son till he takes a wife but a daughter is a daughter the rest of your life" then I realized that that's simply not true! I know sons who are immensely close to their mothers and daughters who barely speak to their mothers. On both sides there can be closeness or tension. I do think seeing a daughter possibly play dress up in my wedding dress or have her own baby grow inside her would be magical but I also love the idea of my boys! Big young men who will protect their momma someday and strong masculine energy. I grew up with very little masculine energy in my life so it's refreshing. I played Barbies and princesses with my sister. I got to have the girly experience, including the fights. So it will be amazing to see the other side of that. We went blueberry picking yesterday and the woman who ran the farm was telling us about her four strapping grandsons. They all come back to the farm often. They love it there and they want to someday end up there. They are all also super close with each other. It made me smile. I have a lot of hope that my boys will be close with my husband and I, their grandparents and each other their whole lives. In the end the sex of the child doesn't determine that. I think a welcoming supportive and happy home life could help though.

So now we wait! I am just excited to know so I can start envisioning my life with two beautiful boys or a sweet boy and baby girl. I think I know which it will be but you never truly know until you know. And a healthy baby truly is my only wish!