Sicko

no updates cause i have been feeling too sicky to even think about baby futures.

i did have a very nice time though talking with my mother in law about it and i can tell she is very excited for us and for the possibility of me being preggo with a grandbaby next year. she is just the most wonderful mother in law so i know she will be an amazing grandmother. the way she was with our cat alone indicates that.

things have also been really solid between Joel and i. we are both looking forward to out honeymoon and out move and i have calmed down a lot since he said he is open to trying soon after the move if things go well with our job search. he also reminded me that i should enjoy this time and enjoy our love and our freedom. it's important not to forget to appreciate what you have.

my sister and i aren't speaking right now because she had the audacity to make foreboding comments about my life and my marriage. she did this mostly because she felt i was judging her by expecting her to have a new plan of action after she ruined her phone and i was gonna let her have my old one. her response was to act like she could do nothing about it and then throw down the phone and leave while calling me a bitch. that was fine but then the next day she started telling me to watch out because my life was gonna fall apart and bla bla bla and she wouldn't be there. she told me i used to be cool but now i am a judgemental housewife. i told her i am sick of her and sick of being on this roller coaster. i don't need that kind of dark cloud on my life. i may not always do or say the right thing but i never threaten her or maliciously try to pull her down from a good mood. she does that shit to me constantly and i am just done. she deleted me from facebook and seems to be taking her usual shithead ruthless stance. so screw her. i hope she finds love and happiness and experiences all the wonders in life but i am not gonna be shit upon by her. end of story.